It's amazing how everything becomes interesting and engaging right before exams.
Less than a week is left before my first module and here I am, wasting a lot of time as if i have all the time on earth to study!
I had initially turned down a tuition offer by making an excuse that MBBS was hectic and that i do not get time.A week before module i realized how selfish i had been.I remembered the aunty's plea and things like "ilm baatne se behter koi kaam nhe". I called the boy (now my student) and I teach him sincerely and give him a lot of time as he has papers next week.For my own paper, i am hoping for "aate hain ghaib se mazameen khayal mein" wala miracle.
All along, my sister used to beg me to go with her for walks and for ice-creams.She used to seek help from me in her studies but i used to tell her how dumb she was and that I couldn't tolerate her lame questions and listen to her stupid stories.In other words I had been a "bitchy sister" (as she says). Just before module I have switched to the "sooper sweet sis" mode. I go regularly with her and pay for her ice creams and listen to her stories with all ears.I even teach her because I am the most "farigh" insaan you'll ever come across.
My sister is stunned, I tell her "bas Allah jb jise hidayat de" :-P
I had missed majlis at my khala's place last year because I was busy with my practicals.It was the time of "bharpai". I spent an entire day at her place, reached hours before the majlis and made up for last year's absence.On the way back to home when tension started to build I reminded my self that Family comes first
(Dilaasa to self) :-l
"Roti bnana" is something i loath.No matter how much i try i never accomplish the perfect circular shape. My mama whines about this a lot. She goes like "jab sasuraal waale taane denge tb pata chale ga" :P
As i was so bored in the past few days I took this responsibility of "Roti bnana" and I am glad that I am improving :-D
Just when I sit to study, something or the other distracts me.My mama,baba's conversation becomes interesting and i cannot suppress the urge to poke my nose in.
I even like the chicks now,they had been at our place for long time, but i never paid even the slightest of attention to the innocent creatures.While studying, I end up staring at them and find them more cute every time I look at them.
There are times I get the feeling that how unaware I am of my surroundings.To end this feeling, I followed every recent developing story from "Gang rape case" to "Tahir ul Qaqri's Jalsa".
(I would do really well if it were a current affairs' paper) :(
My long forgotten twitter account also became my centre of attention.What once seemed boring to me became interesting.
After all this, when I check DUHS Batch 18's facebook page reality hits me. I feel as if I am the dumbest person on earth and probably not smart enough for a medical school *sigh*
This is when it all gets depressing.
Reminds me of the shair
"Ab udaas phirte ho sardion ki shaamon mein
Is trha tou hota hai is trha k kaamon mein"
Once a nerd,now people don't even ask me how much i have studied because they all know my "destined to doom" fate.
The sad part is none of this motivates me to study.These feelings pass away soon and I revert to my routine.
As for the modules, Abi b time hai, 96 hours mein shayd kuch hojae (another dilasa to self)
Baaqi Allah hi hafiz hai!
P.S Indo-pak cricket series is another distraction in the list.
Fingers crossed for today's match!
